"Here I go, here I go, here I go again. Girls what's my weakness? Men!"
This old Salt-N-Peppa song has been replaying on my mind...figured it should probably be my theme song lately...well that and chocolate or flip flops...those are my weaknesses.
Being alone year after year...my mind seems to focus on one thing--wanting a man. Wanting someone to hold me. To talk to me. To take me out on a date. To come up behind me and wrap his arms around me. To kiss me sweetly...to kiss me passionately. To bring me flowers. To look at me like I am the only person around and the only person he ever wants to look at again. To whisper sweet words in the dark as we are wrapped in the warmth of each others arms. So many things run through my lonely mind daily to the point I feel like my skin will rip open from the agony of the lack of touch. Well...hey, then I at least I would have to go to the hospital to get my skin repaired by some surgeon that I would pray would look like a mixture of McDreamy and McSteamy from Grey's Anatomy...LOL.
See...I told you...weakness. So...what do you do with that?
Well, the world has options....
But when your left still feeling lonely and unloved in the morning...you realize that maybe waiting on God's plan is not so bad after all...
I want someone to look at me with love and desire in his eyes. My sister just got married and looking back at the groom as she walked in was the most beautiful site I had seen in a long time....someone who really, really loves his bride with all his heart. I want someone to love me for who I am. I want someone that wants to hold me forever, not just for the time being until he gets what he wants out of me. I know that I have a lot to offer someone and I am going to make a wonderful wife someday. It has taken me decades to find the confidence I needed to say that and believe it. God has done an amazing work in my life and I now know what I want and what I deserve. Therefore why should I settle for a one night stand when God has an amazing husband for me already planned.
If you are hurting or alone don't lose hope...trust God. He really does know what is best. And I believe if we wait on Him...He will do more in our lives than we could ever imagine. Better than any fairytale.
